Independence Day!

Sunday, June 4th. 2010~ Today is Independence Day. It's the perfect day to take back control of my life! I've been having these thoughts that I have no purpose in life any more. By this I mean, Laney is now "21" and will be moving to Denver with her boy friend "Ben" if things go her way. Karli is "18" and has graduated high school and she too has a boy friend, "Cameron". So needless to say, between friends the boy friends, lap tops, cell phones to keep them occupied, I don't see much of them any more. Unless it's to come ask me for money! Karli doesn't have a job yet, so I do see her more often. So my purpose of "Mother Hood" is winding down.
Then there is Tim, He is still very busy with Smoke Jumping. He left yesterday, or was it the day before? Anyway, he is in Alaska for at least 2 weeks to fight fires. When he is home, he has the back yard to keep him busy. I sometimes think they all would much rather spend their time with others or the back yard instead of spending time with me! Hmmmmm~ I can hear the violins playing, can you?
The girls went to watch the fire works with their boy friends and I stayed home with the dogs. They did ask me to go, but I really wasn't in the mood to hang out with people. Or maybe it's just my way of getting use to the idea that some day, they will both be gone and I will have no one to take care of. I'm so depressed.I sound so pathetic right now. Yeah, tell me something I don't already know~ and to top it off, there is NOTHING in this house to eat!!!